This is part of my Meditation Journal with dozens of posts >
Journal Date: 1998
I just meditated for 25-40 mins. In the blue room of the house. The mind became calm eventually–but followed many thoughts. Probably because this one is tired. One felt numbness. One was presented with many visual photos –mostly of demons and ghouls–like stuff, at an antique shop we saw days ago and the Aztec stuff. One saw the mind as a mailbox to put (hang) thoughts onto. Mind is a depository to hang things to use later.
One saw thoughts being hung up on the box as one let go of each one in the mind. One felt some joy today as one realized that we all are human. One felt very happy to be alive and openly smiled a few times. One felt numb, light, and unbothered by outside noises on just kept bringing the focus back to breathing. The butt hurts and the foot fell asleep– the floor is very hard here. I say these silently to myself as I watch the breath:
Breathing in One smiles to the self.
Breathing out one relaxes.
Out: Let it all go