This is part of my Meditation Journal (click) which includes dozens of posts.
Over the last few months 6? 8? there’s been this constant stillness of mind that is always there. If I stop typing right now – it’s there – instant empty mind. No thoughts. It’s funny… it’s the state that I used to try to reach before with sitting sessions. Now it’s here – what’s to try for from this point forward?
Today is last day of May.
i noticed something over the last few days… my mind is needing some real effort to get started in a different direction.
Between thoughts – between actions and concerted efforts where I’m doing something – there is a break. A revert back to the base of the mind – which, as I’ve said has been like a flatline state of activity – no thought.
So usually I’m seeing this when I’m on the computer… I open a folder and look at the files there and there’s no recognition about what they are…
If I stare at a file on my desktop – it doesn’t make sense – nothing about it makes sense – symbols don’t turn into thoughts which tell me what I’m looking at.
So, I can stare at it for a while… and then I just open it – double click to see what it is… then gradually I’m aware of what it is…
the strange state is continuing… 🙂
If anyone is having or has had a similar experience, please write to me… I don’t know anyone personally that has had this. Thanks…