Though my ‘journey’ – if that is what I can call it, seems to be purely unique to me, there are many experiences that I have shared with others I have read about. It is astonishing to experience something of the mind, to relate it to others I know in this life, and have nobody … Read more
This is part of my Meditation Journal (click) which includes dozens of posts. I’ve done little with meditation this year (2021). I just haven’t felt it. I’ve had things to take care of and I have had to work hard to keep our head above water. I’ve considered a few times this year doing something … Read more
This is something I’ve tried, on occasion, to explain to others. A good effort is about all that can be given… the experience doesn’t lend itself to words. Experiences in which thoughts are not being formed, do not lend themselves to being easily described by words. I sat for a minute here without thought. I … Read more
I had this idea today that I would get a brain MRI done here in Thailand. I’d just pay for it and not tell them what I was going to do, but my idea was to go into my brain’s default “flatline” mode and then see what the doctor’s said. Just for curiosity’s sake. So … Read more
Updated: 4 July 2021 September 2013 My mind isn’t ready to do anything. It’s like I’ve been broken. I have a very hard time creating anything now. I have a very hard time finding a reason to do anything now. There isn’t any motivation, drive, want, reason, urging, feeling, to do anything. I’ve tried over … Read more
The silence in my head when I stop doing, is in a sense, the loudest noise I’ve ever heard. It means something colossal, and yet there is nothing there to tell me what it means. I don’t feel like I’ve reached nirvana. I haven’t done it through the jhanas. I have been in Jhana 8, … Read more