Meditation Journal Entries (Chronological)

Over the years I kept meditation journal entries about my meditation experiences because I noticed early on that there were some very odd experiences. I’ll try to put the entries in the order below.

In October of 1995 or 1996, I learned meditation from my wife’s father, a Buddhist Thai who lived in Illinois. He followed a very Buddhist dogma (of course), and I later decided to drop all Buddhism and just look at it as a physical/mental process, not a religious one.

Meditation Journal Entries

Pre-Meditation Experiences

I meditated off and on a few times a month on average in 1996 and early 1997. Sometime in 1997 I decided to meditate daily.

Mindfulness – My First Journal Entry on the Topic – Aug. 25, 1995
Emotions, Spontaneous Mindfulness – 1995? This was my first spontaneous mindfulness or “at one with the world” experience in a swimming pool at my apartment complex one night as I was alone and it turned dark. This is what began my interest in the topic of meditation.
Early Meditation Session – good concentration, outside distractions not affecting (April 1996)
Body Dying Dream – sometime in 1997. This was another push to get me involved in meditation because it felt like it was some clue pushing me toward the experience of meditating. This happened in Carrollwood (Tampa) Florida.
Emotions, Spontaneous Mindfulness – end of 1997. While washing dishes after meditation. This was in Tampa, Florida.

Meditation Starts (1997-1998)

Pre-Jhana Levels – Experience – 1997. I started to have some odd experiences quickly as I began meditating. I wrote a meditation group online and posted this to ask for help with the oddness of some of the experiences.
Meditation State – I Am the Noise – 1998
Mind Shift While Rollerblading – Shifted Consciousness – 1998
Numbness, Missing Body Parts – 1998
Various Meditation – Outside, Walking, Mirror – 1998
Mirror Meditation – Looking at Self as Meditating – 1998
Meditation Journal Entry 25 – 1998
Fatness Feeling During Meditation – 1998
Disenchantment Wipes Out All Attachment – 1998
Meditation and Numbness, No Body, No Self – 1998
Changing States of Consciousness While Meditating – 1998
Meditation Restarts at Hotel Balcony at Beach – 1998
Baby Died Poem – 1998. This was a poem about our experience of having my wife at the time spontaneously abort in the shower one night. This was preceded by my Abhinna experience – a preview of what was to come.

Post Meditation

Meditation – Numbness – Stillness – Peace – 1999
Intensive Meditation | Daily Notes
Frustration While Meditating – 2005
Mind Clutter – Aug. 19, 2007
Unlinked Mind – Aug. 20, 2007
Fatness Feeling Video – Aug. 21, 2007
Ripples in Field of View – First extended Flat-mind State (video)- August 20, 2007
No Mind – Aug 23, 2007
No Thoughts. No Me” – August 30, 2007
Mind Stopped (video) – August 30, 2007. After my meditation at the top of a mountain temple, the flatline mind state continued for a long time. This was the time it lasted a couple of days. I describe how I’m still coming to grips with this extended state where memory works, and I can function still to ride a motorbike or eat or something, but the mind isn’t functioning the same way any longer. It’s flat and without thought when I stop talking. It reverts back.
Comments on No Thought State of Yesterday – Aug. 31, 2007
No Ego (video) – Sept 02, 2007. Sitting at the top of the Wat Tham Seua mountain in the same state.
3 Dimensions Turn Into 2 Dimensions – Sept. 02, 2007
No Me to Focus on Breathing – Sept. 03, 2007
Reaction, Ego, Emotions Return (with a vengeance) (video) – Sept 07, 2007
Enlightenment, Jhana Levels – Comments – Sept 11, 2007
Test of Meditation Focus at top of mountain – Distracting kids – Sept 23, 2007
What is the Point of Nirvana? – Sept 27, 2007
Unsettled Feeling – March 7, 2008
Layers of Reality – March 16, 2008. This was an incredible experience.
Mind Stops Hiccups Too! – April 9, 2008
Glowing Head | Strange Dream – May 1, 2008
No Mind – Perception Shift – April 11, 2009
Buddhism | The Truth of It – April 23, 2009
Day 1 – Intensive Meditation Practice
Day 2 – Intensive Practice
Day 3 – Intensive Meditation Practice
Day 4 – Intensive Meditation Practice
Day 5 Intensive Meditation Practice
Day 6 – Intensive Meditation Practice
Day 7 – Intensive Meditation Practice
Day 8 – Intensive Meditation Practice
Day 9 – Intensive Meditation Experience
Day 10 – Intensive Meditation Experience
Day 11 – Intensive Meditation Practice
Day 18 – Intensive Meditation Practice

Post Flat-Mind State (Thoughtless Mind State)

Constant Stillness – May 16, 2009
Nibbana, Nirvana, or Hypnotic State? – May 23, 2009
What Am I Looking At? – May 31, 2009
Cloudy Head – Uncreative State – not sure date, but after May 2009
Layers of Reality – June 21, 2009
Fatness Feeling and No Mind Center – Aug. 25, 2009
Meditating in Loud, Distracting Environments – Aug. 28, 2009
Short Dream: I’m in the Way – Nov. 25, 2009
Enlightenment Dreams? – March 14, 2010
Still State of Mind – July 6, 2010
The World is Illusion – Dec. 2, 2011
The White Elephant in my Head – March 4, 2012
A Meditation Poem – April 20, 2012
Dream – Looking for the Ultimate Unknown with the Wrong Tools – July 29, 2012
Stopping – Starting, A New Observation – Sept. 27, 2012
Jhana 1 – Bliss, Ecstasy – October 2012
Memory is Not Right On – Jan 20, 2013
Bizarre Glowing White Orb in Hotel Room – April 15, 2013
A Stroke, or Effect of Meditation? – July 20, 2013
The Feeling of Me – Jan 16, 2014
Odd Dream – Getting in Sync Dream – Jan 16, 2015
Mountain Climb, Flat Mind, and a Question – March 8, 2015
Meditation at Suan Mokkh Temple and Thoughts on Reality – Mar. 15, 2015
Journal Entry – The Guy I Wave To – Feb. 28, 2016
The Abhinna (Abhijna) Experiment – March 2019

Meditation Experiences Timeline – April 21, 2008

The most extraordinary experiences I’ve ever had in my life were Jhana and Abhinna. Of these, Abhinna was by far the most impactful. See more about Abhinna on these pages.

Meditation Journal Entries (Chronological)