Over the last few months 6? 8? there’s been this constant stillness of mind that is always there. If I stop typing right now – it’s there – instant empty mind. No thoughts. It’s funny… it’s the state that I used to try to reach before with sitting sessions. Now it’s here – what’s to try for from this point forward?
Today is last day of May.
5/31/09
i noticed something over the last few days… my mind is needing some real effort to get started in a different direction.
Between thoughts – between actions and concerted efforts where I’m doing something – there is a break. A revert back to the base of the mind – which, as I’ve said has been like a flatline state of activity – no thought.
So usually I’m seeing this when i’m on the computer… i open a folder and look at the files there and there’s no recognition about what they are…
If I stare at a file on my desktop – it doesn’t make sense – nothing about it makes sense – symbols don’t turn into thoughts which tell me what I’m looking at.
So, I can stare at it for a while… and then I just open it – double click to see what it is… then gradually I’m aware of what it is…
the strange state is continuing… 🙂
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If anyone is having or has had a similar experience, please write me… I don’t know anyone personally that has had this. Thanks… ( AimforAwesome [{ @ ]} gmail. c o m )