What Is It Like When the Mind Stops?

This is something I’ve tried, on occasion, to explain to others. A good effort is about all that can be given… the experience doesn’t lend itself to words. Experiences in which thoughts are not being formed, do not lend themselves to being easily described by words. I sat for a minute here without thought. I … Read more

Cloudy Head – Uncreative State

This is part of my Meditation Journal Experience after the Flat-mind State became permanent. I’ve been feeling this for weeks now, it’s pretty impossible to describe, but I’ll give it a try. There’s nothing going on in my head most times. When I try to write a fiction book, think about something in the future, … Read more

Layers of Reality 6-21-09

This is part of my Meditation Journal Experience after the Flat-mind State became permanent. Today I went to one of my favorite quiet spots. I laid down and watched the mind as it responded to stimuli in the environment – sensed by one of the senses… To say I watched the mind is not accurate … Read more

Nibbana, Nirvana, or Hypnotic State? 5-23-09

A headless Buddha as the sun sets in Thailand.

This is part of my Meditation Journal Experience after the Flat-mind State became permanent. Sat 23 May 09 Without writing a book about this… I want to mention it I guess because if at some point nibbana comes despite my not chasing it – there should be a path or a succession of things that … Read more

Constant Stillness 5-16-09

Men's dormitory - second floor - shows sleeping arrangements at Buddhist temple, Wat Suan Mokkh, in Southern Thailand's province of Chaiya.

This is part of my Meditation Journal Experience after the Flat-mind State became permanent. Over the last few months, there has been this constant stillness of mind that is always there. If I stop typing right now – it’s there – instant empty mind. No thoughts. It’s funny… it’s the state that I used to … Read more

Glowing Head | Strange Dream

Divine eye abhinna transmission from Buddha to meditators at Suan Mokkh temple in Chaiya, Surat Thani, Southern Thailand.

This is part of my Meditation Journal where you can find dozens of more posts like this. This dream occurred on 5-1-2008. [This page last updated: 4 March 2022] Yesterday I lay on the floor in my room after having done some exercise outside. It’s hot here in Thailand, some days hover close to 40 … Read more

Meditation Experiences Timeline 4-21-08

This is part of my Meditation Journal (click) which includes dozens of posts. I was just thinking that it would be good for me to put down in writing some sort of timeline for the way things have happened for me since starting meditation. Often times people read this journal and don’t understand why I … Read more

Mind Stops… Hiccups Too! 4-9-08

Siddhartha Gautama Buddha in anorexic state during meditation. This statue is from Suan Mokkh (Mokkhabalaram) in Chaiya province of southern Thailand.

This is part of my Meditation Journal where you can find dozens of more posts like this. This morning I was anxious to eat breakfast. I had kow pad gai (skinless chicken breast over jasmine rice). It also comes with a baggie of chicken broth with scallions and black pepper. Really delicious and it’s my … Read more

Unsettled Feeling 3-7-08

Girl walking at sunrise in meditation on the island of Koh Samui in Thailand's south.

This is part of my Meditation Journal where you can find dozens of more posts like this. Finish the Journey, or Not? I’ve gone for a couple of months without meditating since stopping in September after realizing that the search for the state of Nirvana is not worth it. I decided that because from what … Read more

Test of Meditation 9-23-07

Buddhist nuns (magee) at Suan Mokkh temple in Surat, Thailand.

This is part of my Meditation Journal where you can find dozens of more posts like this. Anapanasati at top of Wat Tum Sua and 5? kids taking my pictures and banging the bells to see if they could get me to move and break the meditation. Mai pen rai krup… (no matter, no mind) … Read more

Reaction, Ego, Emotions Return 9-7-07

This is part of my Meditation Journal where you can find dozens of more posts like this. Reaction, ego, emotionality all return with a vengeance! It seems that the last 5 days were filled with the mind being on edge. Most times were calm, yet, when a difficulty presented itself the mind reacted fast and … Read more

No ‘Me’ to Focus on Breathing 9-3-07

This is part of my Meditation Journal where you can find dozens of more posts like this. I was at Wat Tum Sua again today (Buddhist temple in southern Thailand). The weather was nice, cool and windy. No rain. There were very few people at the top. When I first got to the top and … Read more

Comments on No Thought State of Yesterday 8-31-07

This is part of my Meditation Journal where you can find dozens of more posts like this. 8-31-07 Comments on the process from yesterday. I added a lot more here that I forgot to say during yesterday’s video. I don’t think I described the physical feeling very well yesterday, at least I wasn’t satisfied that … Read more

No Thoughts. No “Me”. 8-30-07

This is part of my Meditation Journal where you can find dozens of more posts like this. Over 6 hours of no thought… no reaction. No emotion. No extra work being done by the mind. A state of high awareness and being precisely in the moment – but without naming things – without judging… without … Read more

Meditating in Loud, Distracting Environments 8-28-09

This is part of my Meditation Journal Experience after the Flat-mind State became permanent. In this video, I went over what I’ve been doing over the past few days with meditation. I’ve been experimenting trying to purposefully meditate in places that were noisy to see – is it still possible to do so. I started … Read more

Fatness Feeling and No Mind Center 8-25-09

This is part of my Meditation Journal Experience after the Flat-mind State became permanent. Fatness and no mind center… I climbed up to the Buddhist shrine at the top of the hill at Wat Tum Sua here in Krabi yesterday and I sat around 5:30pm. There were a group of monks and a woman in … Read more

Fatness Feeling Video 8-21-07

This is part of my Meditation Journal where you can find dozens of more posts like this. Fatness: A feeling as if the body increases in size, it’s borders growing. First there is a recap of yesterday’s “unlinked” feeling that maybe describes it better (for viewers) than yesterday’s audio/video. This state has been happening since … Read more