Chatting with a friend I began writing him a response to his question about what my plans are in 2025 and are they quite huge?
I wrote:
hmmm… you know, high level meditation is a blessing and a curse. It’s a curse to the individual who previously had outrageous ambitions. Who had no limits. Who had the world at his feet. Who aspired to do HUGE things.
Meditation takes that away and flattens it. The peace of mind increases and saturates the individual. Nothing means anything, but everything is fine in the present moment.
It’s a wonderful state unless one has responsibilities to family. Unless one has untapped potential in other areas.
I may need to run from the non-dual state now. From its influence. I may need to push it away and leave it behind until I’m 80 and on my deathbed. It has served its purpose. It has shown me a mindset that could have never been imagined.
It’s time for a huge change again. It’s time for a self-initiated – Ego initiated – change that gets me back on track for my plan since I was 16 years old.
Do something amazing that changes the world.
For a while, I thought that meditation – the Non-dual state and all of this, would be THE THING that changes the world. I see now that so few people are interested and capable of even focusing on the breath at a tiny spot in the nose for 20 minutes a day for a year.
Even people who pay for coaching. They just can’t make themselves do it.
It’s too far outside of what people know as LIFE. As living life. As experiencing life.
There isn’t even 1 person in a similar state (or better state) as mine who has brought the world or even a tiny fraction of the world to the point where they care about a state of mind without pain. Without suffering.
Why should I keep trying?
Not sure I believe in it myself. Even if it did bring the world to a place where a huge part of the population would experience it – so what?
Anyway… I’m sitting here today and wondering what my plan will be from today.
What will be the massive sustained action Tony Robbins spoke of?
I did it already when I wrote many books and did videos and created dozens of websites and businesses online.
But that wasn’t NEAR big enough.
Like many people, since i was young I had this idea that I would do something so massive that it shocked even me.
It can come from some narcissistic traits. It can come from 150+ IQ. It can come from a supreme confidence in myself to do whatever I choose to do.
But I still think that potential is there. Here.
A complete change is needed.
I’m not sure what it looks like yet.
A plan is forming…
It goes against the last 17 years. It pushes back. It diverges here in 2025 and Vern goes a separate way, ignoring the non-dual state that is there as a baseline. That is there as a savior.
It really does remove all pain, and so, like a fantastic drug it tamps down my ambition, the pain that drives me to push forward and accomplish things.
It moderates the drive inside.
Kills it, really.
In a fraction of a second, it’s gone.
I think this whole process needs to stop now.
There is something on the horizon and it looks like it has nothing to do with meditation and ending suffering.
Is Vern active in 2025?
Or, does he succumb to the sufferfree state and wallow in the eternal bliss of the non-dual state?